not what i thought
this is no ordinary, rational feeling - i am overtaken by a panic and run i - have fallen by the wayside many times before - and i have learned to use this love as a weapon - i am caught up by the common as usual i - have nearly followed til' my spirit was numb i - continue the ascent of never ending - collecting all but things that matter the most - but you're not what i thought when i saw you - i have been running for so long and so far - i haven't got what i thought i would find - to fill the empty up - but you're not what i thought - no you're not what i thought - there is a manner i have quietly tucked away - yet it is fighting for a place at the top i - am dying to believe i'm big enough to try - but it's a battle i am losing alone // oh, oh oh - you're uncovering - what i was missing all along - oh, oh oh - i'm giving everything - for the war - for the war is won - for the war is won // and you're not what i thought when i saw you - i had been running for so long - but now i've got - something else, something more - that i know will fill the empty up - 'cause you're not what i thought - no you're not what i thought
you illuminate the open air - i am silently catching every glimmer i can - cause i know that when the lightning hits - i'll be standing here breathless in the wake of each glimpse - your beauty radiates - it's filling the sky - you're breaking through the darkness - i'm like a child - standing in amazement - here in the night - you shine brighter than fireflies - caught up in the mystery - i can't deny - everything around me - reflects your light - you shine brighter than fireflies - i'm surrounded by your brilliant glow - and i marvel in wonder at the sight i behold - i am running with an empty jar - want to capture it all, i'm chasing after your heart - your love is infinite - it's filling the sky // now that i've seen who you are - you're all that i want - i can't turn away - now that i've seen who you are
everybody has those days
no one ever accused me of being the best - and no one really understands what's going - on in my head - i'm feeling alone and i'm feeling like sort of a mess - can't make sense of anything - and so i'm telling myself over and over again - everybody has those days - everybody has those days - everybody has those days - but the beauty is often uncovered by facing the pain - and everybody has those days - no one ever mistook me for beauty and grace - you know i'm really more the clumsy type - always making mistakes - the harder i try to be careful the bigger the break - can't do right for nothing - and so i'm telling myself over and over again // woah, woah, woah (2x) - everybody has - everybody has - everybody has those days (4x) // but the beauty is often uncovered by facing the pain - and everybody has those days
worship the lamb
i want to sing a song that's - never been heard - i want to write the emotions - when i can't find the words - but there is nothing i could say - i could sing - to give an adequate description - of my glorious king - for you are - indescribable and that's why we sing - hallelujah to the great i am - all that is - all that has ever been - all consuming love - that never ends - so let us come - let us worship the lamb - let us come - let us worship the lamb - for every thought in the intelligent mind - for every brilliant invention - that history provides - there is nothing i could form - i could bring - that could be added to the splendor - of my glorious king - for you are - unchangeable and that's why we sing // all i am - at my best - i am merely a breath (3x) - all i am- at my best - i am merely a breath for you
the same place
trade your problems for the pain - of knowing that you walked away - no longer participate - you made another big mistake - didn't anybody ever say - we all lie in the bed we make - it's fine - we're all good inside - or so you say - but we all come from the same place - we all come from the same place - what's right - is only in your mind - or so you say - but we all come from the same place - we all come from the same place - the same place - you wait through another stormy day - on the other side of harshest rain - the sun shines and you breathe again - but take the miracle away - and trade it for a common phrase - we're all taking our chances anyway // and you know that - when it's over - there's no stop - to consider - were they right? - were they closer? - was it worth all - you gave - away - away?
not myself anymore
you've gotta' love it for what it is - take a minute to look around - and you'll find out - it's over now - there's no reason for acting like this - i knew it was coming - you've had it written all over your face - for a long while - so let's split it right down the middle - and just walk away - there's no use in trying to save something - you're just gonna' have to change - but i - can't seem to figure out why - i'm not myself anymore - and i cry all the time - and you - you're unaccountably gone - you've got no explanation - for leaving me alone - well maybe we shouldn't have - let it go on - for so long - 'cause i am just not myself anymore - going forward but looking back - i cannot remember - just how it got started - i know it's just part of - the way this goes - but sooner or later you'll ask - was all of this really - a mandatory separation - or was it just easiest? - so let's have a last conversation - and just drive away - there's no use in trying to save something - you're just gonna' have to change // and putting all these memories away - is getting harder than i thought - so why can't we just be friends - when that's all we were before?
i won't break
well it's confusing - but i know it so well - just taking time to be - whatever you want to be now - and i've been wondering -when it all fell apart on me - and how i didn't see it coming - in the least - baby - i gather miles - and put them up on display - pretend i'm shiny, new - and tell the world i've changed, but - i can only take so much - i will only say this once - i can bend in a million ways - but i won't break - no, no, no - i won't break - i lose my mind - a little more every day - becoming everything - i know that you wanna' see now - can't help but wonder - when the colors began to fade - or when i started putting shadows in their place - yeah // you try to tear me into pieces, baby - but i won't - but i won't go - you try to tell me that there's nothing better - but i know - yes i know
we'll take our chances on a - big dream - never won over by a - sure thing - no longer run for cover - hiding - we're moving on - been underestimated - by them - told we were never gonna' - make it - without our ticket to what - they have - but we're moving on - won't take for granted anything - 'cause it's all gonna' come and go - in this together - won't shy away - we're just taking it as it comes - though we'll have our missteps - and mistakes - not gonna' let it get us down - we've just gotta' keep moving on - the future may be out of - our hands - one little part of such a - big plan - but in the end it makes no - difference - we're still moving on // stop your worry now - just be strong - be strong - leave your fear behind - we're moving on - moving on (2x)
it's amazing the grace you've extended - when troubled times took a place in my soul - i needed someone to come and perfect - all the things i can't reach on my own - i believe in a purpose intended - for the life you breathe only in me - i needed someone to fight and defend me - and salvage what's buried beneath - there is nothing to give - that you don't already hold - there is nothing in spoken word - to claim as my own - however small and unoriginal - my heart overflows - with this offering to you - this is my offering to you - so sing aloud will this child of the kingdom - all praise and glory to heaven above - no longer carry the burden of slavery - rejoice in his ransom of love - you alone are perfect by nature - passionate lover, redeemer and friend - who am i to inherit this treasure? - a place in your infinite rest
it's been a long time coming - this lonely road - i left myself - a long, long time ago - it's been a long time running - since i got caught - doing all the things i don't - so why do i - feel the need to hide myself behind - a veil that doesn't show - who i am inside? - don't know who i think i'm helping - don't know who i think i am i - don't know - don't know - don't know - don't know - it's been a long time coming - this down and out - 'cause i was never very - honest with myself - it's been a long time running - since i was told - that it's alright to ask for help - so why do i - feel the need to hide myself behind - a veil that doesn't show - who i am inside? // i am trapped inside my mind - and i am stuck behind the times - that i was cool and calm and comfortable - does anybody see me here? - does anybody, anybody care? - does anybody hear me now?
we have been running away - we have been hiding - we have been making mistakes - and then denying - all of the things that make us who we are - fallen from grace and yet restored - we have been giving our time - to all the wrong things - we have been saving our cash - and yet not helping - all of the ones we call our neighbors - everyone you said to love - afraid of being hurt - we only give until it costs us something - so they won't see the worst - we tell ourselves it's better - they see nothing - but we diminish everything you are - by hiding out inside ourselves - we need - to return - to return to you - we are a body in debt - and need of healing - we need a light upon all - we've been concealing - nothing is whole without it's pieces - bearing the burden all as one // we are unwilling - and we are cold - for fear the darkness - will be exposed - but if we hold on - to all our secrets - we only forfeit - our chance at freedom
it’s getting harder to believe - that the holes in this life that we’re stepping around - were there right from the start - it’s no coincidence to me - that it’s harder than ever to find something bigger - to fill the space between - something’s fundamentally broken - when the world falls apart and no one seems to mind at all - whatever it is it’s fundamentally broken - and no one seems to notice - that it comes from the inside out - look around, what do you see? - are the privileged among us so different from those - who are left with nothing? - when we’re searching for meaning - i think we’ll discover our souls are the same - though many are deceived - with every experiment and every exchange - we’re crying out for someone - to come in with beauty and put it in place of the pain we all feel
this is no casual storm - for i am weather-beaten and time-worn - this fire is not merely warm - i have been burned and broke - refined as ore - i believe - that there is nothing between you and me - for your blood has redeemed - i believe - what you are exercising in me - is no more - no less than what i need - you are faithful - the test of patience is long - and i am waiting on deliverance to come - but your commitment is strong - and i have seen that you’ve forgotten none - there is no empty trial - there is no wasted pain - there is no needless fire - the love of god sustains - and how i have to bless him - i have to praise his name - for all the times i have been taken through the flame - you are so faithful to me - yes you are faithful, god
come to me
come to me - come to me - all of you who are weak - all of you who need peace - come to me - come to me - there is a fountain that flows for your restoration - there is an island of hope in the middle of the storm - there is a water that does not run dry - for the empty thirst inside you - he is waiting - and he is saying - he is a beacon in the night - when there is darkness he is light - so take his hand and he will guide you home
what are you looking for?
i have followed my formulas - to the edge of an endless sea - all the methods that i live - are now what’s living me - in all this chaos there has got to be a plan - in all this mess there’s gotta' be someone to get me out of it - so get me out of this - what are you looking for? - an easy way around the things that you can’t stomach? - take it down - take it down, now - what are you looking for? - a hand to hold your own while you just run around it? - run around - run around, now - i’ve lived my life under a canopy of lies - and it’s amazing - how i always think i’m right - in all these lessons there has got to be an end - ‘cause i’m so sick and tired of bailing myself out again - so get me out of this - dizzy girl - she can’t get up - from the weight of the world - she’s underneath her problems - runs around them - can’t stand up on her own two feet - so get me out of this
if i walk in the rain for days - will you meet me on the way? - if i sing a new song for the miles - will you help me when the time - comes to write it down? - has anyone ever felt so lonely? - has anyone ever been so afraid? - as each new day unfolds before me - i can’t say that i am gonna' make anything of it - when my nerves are all tangled and torn - scattered pieces on the floor - when i’ve gone nearly out of my mind - want to leave this all behind - will you convince me to stick it out? - life-size imperfections - taking over my mind again - i try to forget them - but alone i am trying in vain
gracious and loving god
i find it difficult to place myself - at the foot of the cross - when i truly stop to think about - the bloody mess of human flesh - my heart just stops - betrayed by those who claimed to know him well - not showing any sense of loss - would i have partnered in the cowardice? - and run away afraid i might assume the cost - what a gracious and loving god - who would give his life for me - even though he knows me to the depths of my soul - he has set me free - so i will take this bread - and i will take this blood - even though i could never deserve this love - what a gracious and loving god - who would give his life for me - it must have been amazing scenery - to see the ever-darkening skies - but i can scarcely wrap my mind around - the moment when they drove the spear into his side - the mess of blood and water pouring down - the haunted look in people’s eyes - would they ever even realize - the one they turned away had come to save their lives - there is not a single sound that i could utter - that would be adequate at best - to bring relief from the emotion deep inside me - the words i wish i could express
tired eyes - hold the memories of something better - life made more sense - when they all were still together - she can’t hide - when her world is falling down - little girl hold on - when the world confuses you - little girl be strong - it’ll make sense someday soon - hold on to what you know to be true - little girl hold on - little girl hold on - time brings change - not the kind she’d always hoped would happen - no one to blame - at the same time - everything to question - days go by - and her world keeps falling down - in her mind - she can’t reconcile the fact and fiction - little girl hold on - little girl - little girl - if you hold on - be strong - be strong - it’ll make sense someday - someday soon - so if you hold on - if you hold on - little girl just hold on - hold on - little girl hold on - little girl be strong - be strong - little girl - little girl hold on
none but you
if nothing else - there’s nothing left to give to you - one thousand times i’ve said - i’d try my best - only to lose - but you take me as i come - and you are the only one - forgive me for giving - myself away to anything - that calls my name - there is none but you - through my desperate measures - you show love that cannot be severed - there is none but you - just one more chance - the same request - you’ve heard it before - so many times you give - yet i return asking for more - when you show me who you are - lord, you break into my heart - none but you - you are all i need - all i need - there is none but you
and you love me
i’m not always who i want to be - but you tell me - there is room for change and there is always great need - i’m not always walking in your ways - but you tell me - that you are always there and you will never leave - i choose to run away from you - but you always see it coming - i am never a surprise - why is it easier to believe - that i am what they’ve made of me - what everybody thinks? - confined at times to who i was - i’m redefined by your great love - and you love me - i’m so far from where i’d like to be - but you whisper - the fight is just a part of the journey - caught up in everybody else’s truth - but you tell me - i couldn’t be more beautiful to you - i’m broken running home to you - and i know you see me coming - ‘cause i am never a surprise - i feel so inadequate sometimes - but you love me - unusable, confused am i - but you love me you’ve made it easy to believe that i am what you’ve made of me - and you love me – oh you love me
beautiful one - you are all i see - beautiful one - you are all i need - beautiful one - you are everything - beautiful one - your beauty shines across the land - and it will quickly pull me in - how could i turn my face away from you? - your strong and gentle arms extend - and they are beckoning me in - i will never turn - never turn away from you - you encompass all i see - and you are taking over me - oh that my heart would be as beautiful - as beautiful - i long to live inside your love - oh lord that i would just become - a mirror for your beauty to the world - i may not understand your power - and i may not understand your ways - but i know exactly who you are
down to the wire - and i am throwing in my cards while there’s still time - nobody can make me change my mind - i won’t let opposition keep me confined - there’s something i’ve been missing most of my life - so tell me - tell me - why your definition should make any difference to me - just let me be - i’m over the trying to find yet another identity - i am who i am - and that’s good enough for me - i won’t define - who i am by what somebody likes or dislikes - it may be an elegant disguise - and i’d look put together on the outside - but trying to make them happy’s just a waste of time - i am who i am